Poems-

jackcook02 · Subject: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:12 pm

since i thought that the weekly writing thingy was a poem thingy I was wronghehe as usual-

you can post anything that you want in here, it has to do with writing and it has to be more then three sentences long-

little stories and suff is fine.

Now about my poems...If you read them and say "dang this girl is crazy..." Don't tell me, I was in the stage where I hated everybody..wait...i'm still in that STAGE!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH just playin but anyways...

I don't really want to kno...

but

just leave a comment or Im me On [email]Jack_cook_02@hotmail[/email] or Jack_cook_02@yahoo.com

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:13 pm

my heart hurts so bad
I think that I miss you
years it has been
since the last time that I saw you
years have been since I have been down that road
the road of love and hate.

i had hid away from all my problems, not knowing what I wanted
not knowing that you were the one
not knowing that I was going to hurt you

even thou you were my only strength in this cruel world
i don't think that I can go on, with this broken mask
with this broken heart
years it has been since i had felt this way
years it has been since I had thought about you

i miss you now, so come back

we'll forget everything that ever happened...

We'll forget that I said that I hated you and wished you dead

We'll forget that you slapped me, i'll forget that I never wanted you back

so...please...come back to me

I love you

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:14 pm

my life shatters in the world of love
this world where people want to be with each other for eternity
i don't get what I did wrong
I followed the rules, i love you like my own
I said good night
i said that I loved you
When you said that you loved him more my heart hurt

At first I thought that it was a joke,
I thought that you were joking
then you showed me
you showed me that I was wrong

You gave me the eyes that showed me that you were using me
Shattering like a broken glass I felt alone
and not safe
I felt free but I didn't want it
I look away not knowing what to say
I didn't know what to do,without you I am nothing

Two months, pass by and i'm still alone
nobody talks to me, my friends stay away

you said that I hurt you and that I slapped you up
Right now while I stand here and stare at your picture
i really wish that I did slap you up

Crashing my heart down as soon as I thought that I was heald
Crashing my hopes down as soon as I thought that I was back
Being free, and somewhat trapped
Why did you have to pick me?

Why did you have to pick me to shatter my heart?
Couldn't you have picked him?

Where my heart was hurts like hell, not knowing what to do
i sit in my room and think about you
about what we were...
and about our love...

yes...tomorrow...

tomorrow i'll go to school...and i'll forget everything about you

(not one of my best ones...but hey)

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:14 pm

I love you that's what I want to say
I hate you is what I said
I'm sorry is what you said

i hate myself is what I thought
I love myself is what should have happened
my life, in the hands of love

is a whacky theory to want
it's something that will never happen
my life in the hands of hate

that's what's happening, hate surounds me
Darkness consumes me
I look at you with my eyes
i know that they say save me and help me
i know that they say for you to love me
I kow that you are standing there trying to think of something

cold Tears going down my face
it hurts
the pain
the love
the hate

everything just hurts
I callaspe on the ground thinking about what I did wrong
i gasp for air, my whole life is gone
no more love,
no more worrying about other girls

Tears fall down from my cheek and land in the blood
the pain is consuming everything
everything that I worked hard to happen
hate starts to be the only thing that I think of

hate is the only thing that I know now,
no more knowing about love
I'm all alone

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:14 pm

This is a love letter from a boy to a girl...
The girls father does not like him and wanted them to stop their realtionship...and so...the boy wrote this letter to the girl. He knows that the girl's father will definatly read the letter...

"The great love that I have for you
is gone, and I find my dislike for you
grows everyday. When I see you,
I do not even like your face;
the one thing that I want to do it to
look at other girls. I never wanted to
marry you. our last conversation
was very boring and has not
made me look forward to seeing you again.
You think only of yourself.
If we were married, i know that I would find
life very difficult, and I would have no
pleasure in living with you. No one is more
foolish and selfish than you, and you are not
able to care for me and help me.
I sincerely want you to understand that
I speak the truth. You will do me a favor
if you think this is the end. Do not try
to answer this. Your letters are full of
things that do not interest me. You have no
true love for me. Goodbye! Believe me,
I do not care for you. please do not thik that
I am still your boyfriend."

>>>However when handing this letter to the girl, the boy told her, "READ ONLY BETWEEN THE LINES!"

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:15 pm

my sister wrote this-

I love the man that I'm with and I hope I can be with him forever. I know that the first time I started liking boys, I saw one with blonde hair and blue eyes, i know that, that's what I wanted my dream guy to look like. And then in 7th grade I found one that I really liked. I hoped he would ask me out again (because he asked me out and he didn't go it himself so I didn't know who he was). But the minute I saw him I just loved his cute little face and his sexy voice. His voice still makes me fall in love with him all over again. I love his laugh, his touch, his eyes, his body, his kiss, oh how I love the kiss. Ive though about him for almost 5 years and I still feel the same. He doesnt believe me that I liked him from when I first met him, but I know what I feel and I know that hes the only one guy that makes me fall in love with him over and over again like its suppose to happen! I could just stare into his yes like nothing and just the slightest smile on his face can make me happy. I feel like every girl cant have what I have and that Im the luckiest, happiest, and most loved women that can be on earth. No matter how many times he hurts me, physically or mentally, I still love him and I still feel like hes the best man in the world. He gets mad at me and I think that hes going to end what we have worked for. Everything that we worked for is everything that I ever wanted. Hes the one that makes me feel like I need to live. The one that I want for the rest of my life. The one I want to marry. The one I want to have my children with. When I think of him, I think of him smiling. Laughing with me and then looking in his eyes like the world doesnt matter. And that even though some people do not want us together I need him, I need him to be there for me when Im feeling like crap. And when I think that there is no other person that can me happy or make me smile, he comes to me and just lightens me up by touching my face. I love when he touches my face because it makes me think that he cares just a little more that he says he does. Sometimes I really wish that he could explain to me just the way he feels about me. Not that he doesnt do it, but I just wish that he would do it more. Make me feel the way he tells me he feels about me. In the beginning of our relationship we use to do that a lot, but for some reason after time got to us we just laid back and ended up telling each other that we loved each other a lot. And kiss and have sex. Dont get me wrong, I don love him a lot. I think the kissing and I defiantly love the sex. But I love him more that my life. I dont know what I would do without him. If it wasnt for him, Id be stuck in hell. Worse hell then Ive ever been in. hes the kind of thing that no matter what happens; you cant let him go because he might not come back to you. What if he left? I dont know what I would do. I dont know if Id die from a broken heart, or just kill myself to not deal with the pain of not having him. Hes not the most important person in my life and I could NEVER want anyone else, like I want him. My heart only wants him.

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:15 pm

You Give Me Wings.....
When I'm with you... I feel happy almost as if I can fly. My love for you gives me wings. Every word you say to me helps me fly. The higher I go, the more I hate being apart from you. There's so many words to say to you, but I'm afraid it would take a lifetime to tell all of the things I feel. When I am away from you, my heart feels empty inside, as if I don't have a soul. It's like if I'm away from you, My world, my heart, even my life seems worthless without you. You waited for me for two years, secretly, I waited for you to tell me those three sweet words, that mend my broken wings, and save my heart from my sadness, and self loathing.
I Love You. Every day I wish, I hope, to hear those three sweet words, that save me, from myself. My worst fear is to be away from you, to be alone. When you hug me, I feel the sadness melt away, my hatred being washed away by the tide of our love. Sometimes I even feel hope. The bottom line is I love you. All I ask for is, for you, to return my love. Once in a while, lean close to me and wisper "I Love You" in my ear, and I'll return it back in saying I Love You back, and remember this.... Our love for eachother gives me wings.

SnowFlakes
Those cold winter days make me feel sad, cold, and alone. But the snowflakes remind me of you, they help me find happiness in a cruel world. The snow helps me remember you, and how you were once kind to me, how you loved me once.
When the night comes, I cry out for you and hope you can hear me. For when the snow falls, it helps me remember your face, your kind warm smile, that makes my heart melt, on such a cold night.
But when the snow stops and the moon comes out, it brings a tear to my eye, and lets me know that you are watching over me. But when the snow falls, it also reminds me of how I'll never see you again

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:16 pm

(Assume you are a girl if you are a boy)

It's your first time. As you lie back your
muscles tighten. You put him off for a while searching for an excuse, but he refuses to be swayed as he approaches you. He asks if you're afraid and you shake your head no bravely.
He has had more experience, but it's the first
time for you. His finger has found the right place. He probes deeply and you shiver,
your body tenses, but he's gentle like he promised he'd be. He looks deeply within your eyes
and tells you to trust him. He's done this many
times before. His cool smile relaxes you and you open wider to give him more room for an easy
entrance. You begin to plead and beg him to hurry, but he slowly takes his
time, wanting to cause you as little pain as
possible. As he presses closer, going deeper, you feel the tissue give way. Pain surges throughout
your body and you feel the slight trickle of
blood as he continues. He looks at you concerned and asks you if it's too painful. Your eyes are
filled with tears but you shake your head no and nod for him to go on. He begins going in and out with skill but you are now too numb to feel him
within you. After a few moments, you feel
something bursting within you and he pulls it out of you, you lay panting, glad to have it over. He looks at you, smiling warmly, and tell you, with a
chuckle, that you have been his most stubborn yet most rewarding experience. You smile and thank your Dentist. After all, it was your first time to have a tooth pulled.

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:16 pm

Can you fly I can Wonna see
When I take a hit of this cigarette
I feel like I can do anything
I feel like I can kill and hit anybody
I want too
I feel like superman who can
Beat up mean people who hurt
People and dont give a shit.
I feel like I could even take Down the whole army
But that just lasts for only A couple of minutes
A few minutes of feeling like the hulk
Then its all over
I could just take another hit But itd ruin my brain cells and
Id have to listen to you yell
At me yelling and telling me that
Im gonna die and its bad for you Why else am I doing it?
I cant kill myself because I wont
Feel like superman or the hulk
So I always do this.
I take another hit and there it goes
Again I feel like super man and that
I could take down the whole high school
Wait whats this? Whats he doing?
Whys he got that gun?
Ha-ha I feel like I can kill you!
What a second I thought I just said That Im superman and that I can
Take you down?
Whats with this shit?
Wait a minute whys he smiling?
Whys he looking at you?
My best friend who doesnt do this Stuff.
Hes giving you the evil look Why?
Whys he doing that to you?
Wait a minute Im supposed to be Superman and save people so why am I letting him hurt you.
I pushed and tried To shove him away but I feel so weak.
I heard youre scream
While others tried to Get him off from you.
When we did I grabbed the Gun.
I took another hit then said
Im superman get it right. And I shot his Arm.
I didnt want to kill him and leave You in this world.
I looked at The joint. If this was ever gonna happen Again
I wont be high and wait to The last minute,
because of me Getting high you almost got hurt.
So no more trying to be the hulk Or superman
because Im only superman For you.
And for you only.
Nobody else.

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:17 pm

I stared at myself in the mirror. I didnt know what to do
I didnt know if it was okay to Cry or just sit here
And let it sink in
I thought that you were happy With me
I thought wed take over the world With our love
But you were to prefect for me
Youre love was to prefect for me
I wasnt prefect enough for you
My love wasnt enough for you
Thats how I felt
I felt like I didnt disserve
You at all
I felt like my fanisty
And reality had joined together
Now I cant tell whats true
And whats not
I cant tell if the rooms spinning
Or if its just my head
When Im with you I feel lost
When Im not with you I feel scared
I dont know how to act anymore
I dont even know what to do
I sighed while standing up
Today is a big day for me
And my friends
I cant let my love life ruin My band

I stepped out onto that Floor
everybody Screaming out my name
At first I wanted to run back
And scream at you ''Whyd you do that?''
But I then closed my eyes
And felt them roar
When I opened them
I smiled while I felt a tear go Down my face
Because for once I told myself
this time you're not coming
back for me

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:17 pm

i walked down my hallway not thinking about anything but why i stopped doing drugs. I kept telling myself that he might even look at me because i was early at school or that i got a better score then he did. When the teacher said my name nobody seemed to know who i was. I sat way in the back, where all the other druggies would sit. My uniform was nice and clean usually it was dirty because of the smoke or people doing stuff. i noticed a burnt spot on my skirt so i hurried past him thinking. 'he won't see me, he won't see me.' He did, he reached out to talk to me but i just ran away from him. I didn't want to fall again like i did before. So why am i quting drugs for him?
A week ago-
I stumbled into the class room higher then hell, i was hungry and all the preps usaully had the food. So i walked over to them stood straight then started to talk. "Monica i need something to eat." Believe it or not she sort of knew me. She wasn't paying attention on what she gave me. I sat and and ate my food. But it seems that i wasnt quite welcomed. She looked at me then smiled. "We have to go over there to talk to somebody, if we sit down then your welcomed to come over." I didn't say anything i just sat there and ate the chips and the brownie that she had given me. They did get up and walkover to where they said that they were going too be. Sitting at that table was somebody who i didn't know. I never saw him before. I stared at her while she sat down, he on the other hand started to talk to her. Then the talking started to be an agruement. Soon he stood up and walked all the way over to the other side of the class room. I sighed and some what stood up and walked over to where they were sitting. I sat then sighed again. "I know that it's none of my biz but uh what just happened?" Monica's sidcitc looked at me then pointed at him. "Monica's cheating on him." She sighed while she typed on her cell phone. "With who?" I asked while all threw of them turned to me. Everybody but monica of course. She sighed and typed again. "His best friend." I turned my head and saw five guys standing over there. "Which one?" "the blond one." I didn't have to make anexcuse to leave because my bell had rang. I left and walked to my next class knowing that my day wasn't getting any better. I ran into my step brother, that's when i came up with a stupid idea. Even thou monica was the only one who ives me my food that i want i didn't like it when people cheated on other people. I typed something out and gave it to him. I told him to make copies and make sure that you start a rumor that it was a higher grade student.
The next day and I watched to see if he got one of the letters, he didn't. He laughed and acted like nothing was wrong. So when he had his third hour period i walked over to him with my typed letter. "Er...erik here!" I said while his friends walked into the class room. He read it then frowned. "What-how did you find out about this?" I smiled then poitned to my lips. "I can't tell you." he smirked then stared at the room, standing on the other side of the class room was his friend sitting next to him was his girl friends *< eriks*. he sighed again then looked at me. "When i get suspended do you want to hang out for a while after school?" I smiled then shook my head yes. He told me to go to class and i did. I smiled while i walked into the class room, the phones went off when i sat down. I knew that it had started, the teacher even got a phone call and she ran out the door.
For the whole week it seemed like a dream. But when Monday came around...I woke up from my dream.
Today is Friday, I ran to the gym thinking that he wasn't following me. He had, when i turned around to see he was standing there. He grabbed my wrists then stared at me in my eyes. "I'm sorry that i haven't talked to you...i just didn't think-i love you." I started to cry while he pulled me into his arms. Walking out of the girls bathroom was Monica and her friends they stopped when they saw us kiss.
Today i realized that we both thought that we were living a dream-but really we were in reality.

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:18 pm

Schools boring without him,

Hes there in the mirror,

and in the shower too,

He made me forget every bad past,

Made me love when I hated,

Chose the right when I debated,

Opened my eyes and saw what I did not know,

Closed my eyes and saw that wasnt so,

Helped me put me on my feet,

Made me forget the days when I was beat,

Held my hand, held it tight,

Put me in a place that felt so right,

Tossed me up and sat me down,

Put me on my feet back on the ground,

Told me to count 1...2...3,

And the two of us would always be,

Fairy tales in a far off land,

Took me there by holding my hand,

Years of loneliness and pain,

He saved my life in a simple date,

Things I thought could never be so,

Happened to be the things he told,

Years of suffering through all the pain,

Hes so perfect to tame my vain,

He lifted my heart with a simple look,

I swear he came out of my,

Prince Charming Child Book

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:18 pm

no offense to anybody on here-

Prince:

Words can never express the love I feel for you,

Youre my prince charming,

my dream come true,

You treat me as a princess like every girl should be,

You could have chosen another,

Im glad you chose me,

You make me feel so special,

I love you more each day,

I hope well last forever,

for that I can only pray

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MIKE:

Mike, god your such a dyke,

You and I went out for a short time,

Almost as much as jimmy youre a slime,

You told me we just couldnt be,

But now Im glad cuz that too I can see,

Youre a loser and that plays video games,

Youre as phoney as your best friend jimmy,

Whos really Name is James

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:19 pm

Screaming and fighting my demon inside,

Im lost because of something,

So confused and scared,

Im the girl whos hiding in the dark corner crying,

theres that place inside,

This demon rips and claws at my face

A bloody mess,

so many cuts In such a hurry,

I cant think straight,

Demon doesnt care for tears or sympathy,

Reaching toward with a voice of silk,

Promising so many things,

Shrinking back inside the corner,

Demon is soft as silk and as hard as nails,

In this place,

Its only red,

and shadows,

No ground or sky boundries,

Only the dark shadowed corner,

Im the girl who shrinks in the dark,

Only knowing I want out,

Only knowing my dark corner is safe.....

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I sit in this room,

and listen to you talk,

You talk and talk,

I go through this shit everyday,

God damn it, will you ever go away?,

Please die and burn,

When you do Ill laugh and turn,

Ill spit on your grave and laugh out loud,

cuz I know youre in hell,

And not in the clouds

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:19 pm

If i wouldn't have have been
high that night i'm sure everything would've went fine
But i was and everything went wrong
If it wasn't for your mother saying that you could go out
Then you wouldn't have found out
If it wasn't for me meeting you there then
I would've never known.
If it wasn't for our friends knowing each other
I'm sure that i wouldn't have cared.
Yesterday i said some really mean things and you didn't listen to my sorrys.
The day before i listened to you talk
about him as if you two were still together.
of course i'm going to get made and care. Of course i would've punched him when he asked you to come with him
So why did you say those mean things when i said how i felt? And why didn't you listen to me and not your friends.
You never read that letter that said that we were over.
You never even looked at it.
That's why i gave you the addutide when i said that it was over.
I couldn't take it being your little cry on shoulder, you were messing with my emotions and that's where it got you.
He doesn't love you anymore, your nothing to him but another girl.
That's why i slept with her, because we were never really together.
You never asked me out you never asked to go to the dance.
i was stupid to even have thought that you liked me more the dirt.
The letter that i gave to you
It had said
'our friendship is one thing but the thing that we both need is another. Us being friends isn't enough anymore. You do stuff with my heart it hurts so much, i'm sorry but our friend ship is over.'
I should've just told you and now i don't want you back.
A year from now i would've taken you in with a heart beat.
But my heart doesn't beat anymore, so just lay me in rest and give me my peace.
Because the girl thati slept with is now the girl that i'm going to marry.

So just to tell you that i'm going with this idea
I thought that i should at least say
That our old friendship should've never been split.
So for now while i'm still in love with that woman i should at least say to you with my old broken heart that
There was also a time when i loved you too.

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.