Poems-

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:20 pm

Lying so cold and lonely in our bed,

Your words of passion and love go through my head,

Tossing and turning in my sleep,

Cuz in your love Im drowning deep,

Seems to me it will never end,

Thou our lives twist and bend,

Wake up at night screaming a horrid scream,

Without you,

lifes a bad dream,

I turn over and reach for you,

I miss your arms around me too......

-Yes-:

If you ever wonder if I think about you,

The answer is yes,

If you ever wonder if I care about you,

The answer is yes,

If you ever wonder if I miss you,

The answer is yes,

If you ever wonder if I need you,

The answer is yes,

If you ever wonder if I ache for you,

The answer is yes,

If you ever wonder if I fell in love with you,

The answer is forever

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:20 pm

So Sorry:

Im so sorry for what I did,

Im sorry for what Ive said!,

I didnt mean to hurt you,

When in reality I did!,

I hope that youll forgive me,

And talk to me soon,

Im deeply so so sorry,

For whatever I did

I can not cry, I can not die if i die then my family will suffer. people who act like they were my friends would cry and act like they were hurt If i cry everybody around me would wonder I've gotta be strong because nobody else will I've gotta be strong because so that people don't question I've gotta be strong so that people don't suffer I've just gotta be strong.

I can not go out at night Because people will think bad about me. I can not, not listen to my parents because they act so high and mighty. I can not say anything unless i want to be hurt I can not tell my father about my thoughts. he'd send me away far away from my mother. I can not tell me mother what i have done to people I can not say anything that would make my family hurt or suffer I can not speak my mind

I can not touch the one i love because it'd be wrong I can not tell him that I feel alone when i'm with him I can not tell him that i wish that he'd listen to me yell I can not tell him that he's the only one for me I can not tell him that I've done bad things I can not tell him that i want to move forwards with this realationship I can not move from this spot since he's gone away

I do not cry at night before i go to bed I do not cry when i'm alone in the dark I do not cry when my family says i love you I do not cry when i hear his name I do thou cry when the water takes away my pain I do cry when rain, the shower, or anything like water hits my body making me free I feel free from everything the pain leaves me. I can not tell you this because you're no longer here...but I do not love you anymore the water has washed you all away your memories are no longer inside of my body I can not say how i much i'm happy because i finually got to say what's been on my mind. I do not know if anybody got hurt. I do not know if anybody suffered I do not know if you're questioning me but what I do know is that i no longer love you i'll stay with my family who cares about me i'll stay with my family who loves me. I'll stay with my family who will not hurt me if I do not hurt them back!

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:21 pm

You look at me with those hateful eyes
I didn't ever want to see you again But you seem to show up everywhere I go
I didn't mean to make you look at me
Like i was nothing.
I didn't mean for you to see me As a toy
I didn't mean to look at you With my dreadful eyes.
I didn't mean to even see you When i knew i should've been with Him.
I knew that he was going to go Looking for me when i didn't show Up for that date at the school
I also knew that you'd be
Where i was holding my hand When he came to see why i wasn't there
At the school
I wanted to scream and hit him But you didn't let me show the True me
You wouldn't let me
And i wouldn't let me ether
I hid behind the purple mask that I wore on my face i liked
To hide behind that mask that you Made for me
I didn't want you to look at me When i cried after you hurt him
I didn't want you to touch me After you hurt him
I stared at your eyes while You gasped....i shouldn't have
Said what i said
I knew that i shouldn't have Done what i had done
I also knew that you'd come Back...they'd bring you back And then you'd kill me
I smiled while i thought of the Thought of killing you there and then
You didn't like that thought...you didn't
Like the look
I knew that you didn't and i knew That i did
I smiled while i pulled the
trigger one
Last time
When i was finished with him I turned back to you
You weren't smiling at me You're face was white as snow
On that snowy day when
I first met you
I sighed while i cried because
I didn't want to loose you
I didn't want you to go with him
I didn't want you to become friends
I didn't want you to think of me as
Nothing just as i thought of you I didn't want you to die knowing
That i didn't love you. So i lied When you reached out to me
I cried...i held your hand and said "I always loved you." You didn't smile
You just coughed...you knew that i was lieing.
But i didn't want to tell you the truth
I knew that you had already learned the truth
That i wanted to have stayed hidden
Away beneath my purple mask

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:21 pm

I didn't want you to leave-
I didn't want to be alone-
I didn't want you to live with him-
I didn't want you to have that baby-
you lied and told me that you'd stay together forever with me-
you lied and told me that you would never go back to him-
you lied and told me that you loved another guy-
you lied to me...
I didn't want you to leave me-
I didn't want you to forget your dream-
I didn't want you to forget me-
I didn't want you to not love me-
I'm sorry that I broke your two favorite glasses-
I'm sorry that I couldn't talk to you like before-
I'm sorry that you were not in love with the other guy but you were in love with him-
I'm sorry that I never told you the truth about my feelings-
I'm sorry that I never said that I truly loved you-
I didn't want you to leave-
I didn't want you to let him tell me the bad news-
I didn't want you to get pregnant-
I didn't want you to have that baby-
I didn't want to be alone-
I didn't wnat to loose you-
I didn't want to meet you-
I didn't want to love you-
I never wanted to let your hand go-
I never wanted to loose you-
I never wanted to hurt you-
I just wanted what was best for you-
I never knew that this world would come crashing down on us-
I never knew that the world would take your dream away from you-
I should've saw it coming-

I didn't want to want to die-
I didn't want to leave you-
I didn't want to leave my lover-
I hated my work-
I hated what he was doing to you-
I hated that you and the other guy couldn't be happy-
I hated that the other guy took everything from you-
I hated everything...

I wanted you to be happy-
I wanted you to have everything-
I wanted you to have the love-
I wanted you to have your dream-
I wanted you to be in love with the other guy-
I didn't want you with that man-

but thanks for everything that you have done...-
I love you Nana...

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 4:22 pm

I'm sitting here trying to think on what to write
I'm supposed to be mad
and writing a peom about suicide
I'm supposed to be happy and
writing a peom about flowers
I'm supposed to be confused and
writing a peom about you
But i can't think of anything
All i have is ''i hate you''
I can't write anything else because there's nothing else to write
That's all i have to say to a man
who never loved me
who used me
who hated me
who abused me
I scratched off ''why didn't you tell me'' because i couldn't rythem with tell me
All i could think of was
i hate you and i want you dead
There's nothing else that i want to write
I could write on how we met
and how we broke up
but it'd hurt my heart more to even think about it.
It'd hurt my heart more to write about her
and how she met me and told me
about the guy that made pass at her
When it was lunch time she'd show me
who it was...
That's when it started to hurt-
I whispered under my breath ''So he really asked you out uh?''
Then after that everything died that day
that's why i can't write a little peom
that says why i hate you and her
I can't do that to myself.
So all i can really write is
I hate you and i hope you two last forever...
because we didn't.

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 10:42 pm

I sit here and I think
I think about what we used to do
And how we were best friends
we never kept anything from each other
And we never lied
When we had problems we talked about them
and didn't just leave the person alone

Our friendship seems to go away every second
our friendship seems to be no more then a hi and good bye
or how are you that's good
Our Friendship is over

About a month ago I would have never thought that we would
be friends, or talked so much
I never thought that we'd be this far
I never thought that I would know you as like I do now

When I stare at the picture that I have saved on my comp.
I notice that we were never ment to be anything
Not friends
not Lovers
Not anything
Everything that I thought was right is now wrong

My life is not better without you in it
There was no change...
Other then the fact that i'm more boreder without you to talk too
I wish that I could say sorry and
I wish that you would understand

But as I sit and stare at the email
I didn't know what to do
Sighing and wondering I push Send
Wondering on if saying what i have been thinking would help
Since our friendship is gone

Waiting and waiting for you to reply
I now figure that I was wrong,
our friendship is not gone
It is still there, it's still strong

As I wish that I had never pushed send
And oh how I wished that I never said the truth

I bite my lip while you write me back

Tears fall down my face while I read the words
every single word that you said to me slammed me like a nail in the wood
My heart hurt for a second until I saw what you
wrote at the end of your letter

While I try to stop the tears I see that I was wrong
But I was thinking right
You and I were ment to be
I cover my face with my hands while a smile comes on my face, I remember the words
And the heart
"I love you too."

Reading those words I knew that you knew that I didn't mean anything
by what I had said, I knew that I was wrong and you did too
And while I sit and feel stupid about what I did I laugh and remembered
that we might see each other...some day

even if it is in this life or the next, I know that we will meet

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

Demon_Shinobi · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 10:44 pm

Rub-A-Dub-Dub, Thanks for the grub. ^^

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jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 10:52 pm

(lol that's cute)

As I hear the whispers threw the night
I should've known that our love was not strong
I should've known that you weren't never mine
My mind races with past tense memories, you laughing
and me staring at your beautiful face
Not knowing what to do next i sigh and role over on my bed
The whispers don't stop I know that they won't
the whispers are from those who care about me but I don't care
All I want is you back in my arms
All I want is your kiss and touch

I close my eyes and remember your laugh
tears go down my face while I remember the good times
Everything seems so far away
everything seems like a dream

When I open my eyes I sigh, I don't know what to do without you
I won't get up and write a poem
I won't get up and write a song
I won't get up and write a death note
Because i'm not like that

I hate it when I think about you
I took your pictures down because I need to get over you
I hate the fact that you go to my school
I hate the fact that you were my best friend

my heart hurts, and it feels like it's going to stop
Our love was nothing and you broke everything that I had

We were friends and I shouldn't have pushed you to be more
I knew that you were in love with somebody else
Geeze now you know how stupid I am

I sigh and sit up, I can't waist my day thinking about
the past, I can't make them wonder if i'm alright or not
So while I take a deep breath I remember one last memory, smiling I stand up

Even thou I might still love you
I still wish the best for you and him

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

**cmyszka** · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 10:54 pm

a 15 second poem (literally)

Out of stone i made a row boat,
I should've found something that'd float
the water felt nice
but soon chilled me as ice
first my cheeks turned red
and now i find myself dead

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I despise mornings... >_< heres a haiku aboot it...

lying down in bed
red eyes glare at dull digits
they cry regardless

note how the syllable count goes 5,7,5 as it should be in a true haiku. =D ...ten bucks to who ever can guess the theme *crossed fingers*

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jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 10:59 pm

(-I don't know it-)

The snow comes down from the sky, landing on the ground
I stood there in the snow wondering about my life
I didn't know what to do, I didn't know what to say
I had just come out side to play, but nobody is there
My best friend moved away
Nobody to yell and play with

Staring up at the sky, I wonder about my life
I wonder if I can ever find a friend
I wonder if I can ever trust them

Smiling and going in circles while closing my eyes
I wonder about my life...and if I will ever see my best friend again
And I know that where ever you are that you are having fun, I keep my smile on my face knowing that I did my job as your first best friend

(short and not understand able)

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 11:09 pm

The guilt I feel is the pain thats real,
And its slowly fading me away.
It makes my heart want to shatter,
Or to you does my heart even matter?
I'm afraid to let it go,
I'm afraid to let it show.
I know I shouldnt care what other people think,
But like a rock in water I will surely sink.
My heart is so heavy and my mind is so weak,
And when I try to explain it to you,
I can hardly speak.
I know you are sad and I know you feel betrayed,
But believe me when I say this,
I feel the very same way.
Like rose thats slowly dieing,
They tell me to hang on to life.
And believe me,
Im trying.
Will this terrible feeling ever cease?
I just want to get away,
I just want eternal peace.
If I were to run,
Would you chase after me?
Or would you leave me like a kitten stuck in a tree?
Can a heart still beat after its been broken,
Or do the words I say fall upon deaf ears when spoken?
Of all the things I've said and done,
There's only one thing I want you to see
The guilt I feel is the pain thats real,
And it's slowly fading me away.

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 11:16 pm

I stare dumbly at the computer screen wondering on why she said what she said
"what the fuck?" I say out loud while I read her stupid email
Wondering on what she was going to say
I dumbly read the stupid email
After reading about her confesion I sit and stare at the computer screen blankly.

"What do I say?" I ask myself while sorta rereading it all over
"what do I say?" I asked myself again, 'What do I say to all of this?'
I didn't know where all this confessing was coming from
Did something happen to make her do this?

Why did she lie to us about her image?
Does she think that we are lower then dirt?
Why? I have so many questions but I don't know where to start

I try 2 IM her but her friend says she's on her way home
"Talk to her" I say before she loggs off. "Talk to her and ask her why?"

Waiting and waiting I waited for her to answer
I didn't know what was happening.
Was this a trick? Was she just fooling us?
And why was she going home without telling us good bye?

Why? I ask myself before realizing that I might have been the reason.
I start to think about what all we said, I tried to remember on what all she did.

Nothing pops up, Hours later she comes on tired
Nicely and calmly I talk to her about what she did

Not knowing what answer I got out of her not knowing if I could forgive her I waited
Sighing and knowing that I could not be mad at her for long,
I slowly type, "It's alright...we still can be friends."

I sighed and slammed my head on the desk.

"This girl...how stupid does she think I am?" I ask myself

(lol so bored and don't care)

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.

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(Becca is forcing me to post this so laugh all u want cuase idc it's just somthing i wrote awhile back,I hope your happy Becca now i'm gonna go emo and cut myself^.^)

When the darkness sets in and the light fades
Where will you be?
Will you run to him?
Will you run to me?
The night passs and I dont hear the knock
The knock at th door that i waited to hear all night

Is this my fate?
Am I just the one you tell your problems when no one else will listen
Is that all I am to you?
All those times w sat up and talked was it for nothing
After all the hints and all th times i basicly told you how I feel
Was that just until the light broke through the windows again and the darkness was gone untill the next night?

Demon_Shinobi · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 11:47 pm

I have some poems too. I just get emberassed when people read 'em =/ lol

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jackcook02 · Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 30 Oct 2007, 11:50 pm

I could care less if ppl thought that I was crazeir when they read them...most of my poems but the last three of four were written when I was younger...the other ones were written like today

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does it matter what i say and do? you'll keep doing the same things over and over again. it doesn't matter what i say and do because you'll never believe that i really do love you.